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[Jan. 20th, 2008|11:52 pm] |
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Tits, by the way, this is the first entry I've had in like, a year...
Or something?
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[Jan. 20th, 2008|11:47 pm] |
Bananas?
Oh, you know.
Art!
Right? |
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[May. 12th, 2007|02:52 am] |
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Hello beautiful,
:-)
This is me being happy. I'm only partially sure why. Summer = good. I've been inspired lately, but for what, I'm not sure. It's not worth going over what you've (read: LiveJournal) missed, I'm just going to go on the off chance that you know me well enough to figure it out, I guess.
I think things are going well. But I'll still cross my fingers and knock on wood, I guess.
"I guess" is a good way to end a sentence and/or "paragraph" (these aren't really paragraphs, more like taking notes) because it leaves room for personal interpretation or ambiguity and stuff, I guess.
As far as the inspiration goes, there might be something there, it's hard to tell. I guess the "vision" is there but I'm still lacking the "drive." Fuck that guy. The guy at the honors banquet last year...What a cock. Seriously, I'm still very angry at everyone for that waste of time. Oh well, it's over. Am I totally living in the past? I don't think so, but that was definitely a low point in my senior year, but that's behind us now. I need to stop ranting, I guess.
Maybe I'm not so happy, maybe I am. Who knows? If I don't, it seems as though you'd be hard pressed to find someone who is (seeing as how I'm the one who's creating this and is "in charge" of this and my emotions [god, I sound so emo, I should probably just go cut myself and bleed out the sorrow and stuff, I guess] but it looks like uh...Something? I totally want to finish this sentence, but it's beyond me right now [I had problems spelling "beyond" I don't think that's a good thing {wow, what a long parenthetical comment}]).
If I had something brilliant worth saying, I'd say it right now...
Nope, nothing. How useless.
Go find yourself or something. Do something great or radical or whatever. Just do something .
The oceans are becoming more acidic, the glaciers are melting, and global temperature is going up. Lets give it up for us. We've managed to take everything good and screw it up in how many years? Hardly any. Global warming (which is a trendy term for us fucking up the world) isn't what's to blame. It's our fault, we are the ultimate cause. But it doesn't stop at that. We (in the human collective sense) have a great ability to just screw everything up.
Okay, I don't feel like exaggerating on that anymore. My mind has gotten bored and started to wander again.
I've never had a martini, but I want to try one, I guess.
Proofreading is for losers, by the way.
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[Dec. 9th, 2006|01:37 am] |
Eh, shit happens, yeah?
Sometimes I feel more responsible for some things than others...It's makes me wonder if I did the right thing. But I guess it's either A or B, you can't have both, if you could, it'd be too easy. And, as we all know, it's never that easy. I'm sorry that I fucked up. But I still don't think that I did. I just feel like it's my falult things are the way they are right now. Wow, that is way to cryptic. Some of you know what I'm talking about. I just feel like it's my fault.
I guess I can take a hint, as much as I don't want too...Dreams are just that though, dreams. The dictionary defines a dream as: a cherished aspiration, ambition or ideal, and that's all that it is. It holds no merrit. You can try to tell me to keep pursuing it, but I'll tell you right back why it isn't worth it. Go ahead, call me a loser, a quiter, a burnout. Whatever. I really don't mind that much. I have my reasons. Maybe I'm afraid of the commitment or I don't think I can handle it. When people tell you to shoot for the moon because even if you miss you'll land in the stars, yeah, they're full of shit. Life is full of dissapointments. Get used to it. Not only that, but you remember the bad times more than you remember the good ones...Shitty, eh?
Intoxication is filling my head...Kinda...Whatever.
As for you, I miss you. It's not fair. Talk about the short end of the stick, yeah? Was it too early? Probably not. But that doesn't mean that it still doesn't suck.
I've had a few things on my mind lately. Those being most of them.
Maybe we're all born to be businessmen...
Let's quit school and become rockstars and actors.
Type B personalities.
Bye
Gone
Matt |
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[Oct. 26th, 2006|03:28 pm] |
I <3 people. They are cool. I haven't updated in a long time. But it's okay. There aren't actually complete sentences.
Some things never cease to amaze me. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|12:23 am] |
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This is my obligatory bitchy entry every month or two.
I'm pretty much just going nuts right now. I dont' even really know why. It's driving me quite insane right now. It's reallya shame.
Just so much pressure building up inside. I don't even know why, but I feel like I'm going to burst. Shit.
I feel like all these things I've been looking forward too wont be all that I'm hoping. Mostly, I really hoping college doesn't suck. I'd probably kill myself or something equally as drastic. Only not really.
Shit. I dont' even know what's wrong. It's bothering me. I'm just so sick of everything. What a lack luster time this is. Isn't everything supposed to be good right now? If these are supposed to be some of the best years of my life, then there is something seriously wrong.
Sorry, it's not like there aren't good times and memories, it's just...I feel so edgy right now, like I'm not even really me right now.
I feel...Alienated? Dissociated? Disconnected? Maybe? Sort of like being a stranger in my own skin.
These headaches are really killing me. This general unhealthy physical state that I feel like I'm stuck in. I'm not really digging it all that much, something's gotta change.
Road trip should be good, I dont' know when I should go though. There isn't much preperation for it. Just pack up and leave. Does anybody even know what's in Cape Cod? I probably wont find anything while I'm there, it wont make anything different, that makes me a little bit sad. But it'll be a change of scenery. I guess I'll be alone too, which could have mixed blessings. Maybe I just wont come home!
Everything just seems so pointless. I think I'm regressing back to the mentality that I had a few years ago. It isn't much good. I was really hoping that stupid amount of pessimism was gone. But I just can't draw anything from anything anymore.
Okay, that's not true, I can, but not enough to make it worthwhile.
Then again, what solution is there?
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[Mar. 8th, 2006|09:46 pm] |
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I feel as though I've been mean to my live journal lately. I've just been forgetting about it, although, I have nothing to write about in it. So I just save my time by not. This is no different, I still have nothing to write about, but I thought that I'd update for the hell of it.
Nothing really has been happening lately. Okay, actually a lot of things have been happening, but you all know about them. England and stuff was great, I loved it and am going back to Ireland. My 18th birthday was on the 3rd, I bought instant lottery tickets, and didn't win anything :-/ I never was one to gamble. It was a pretty good birthday overall. Got lots of cool stuff and I'm 18 and all, so that's good.
Okay, there's more to say, but no one actually cares...So I'm done with that.
Love,
Korean |
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[Jan. 31st, 2006|08:38 pm] |
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No, I didn't get into Berklee
Yes, I'm going to MSU
Yes, I'm taking it hard
No, you don't care
No, I'm not looking for pity or sympathy
Either way, it's not like there's anything anyone could do about it.
The only thing I can do is move on.
There's one more year wasted and possibly one more dream and aspiration burnt out.
So that's that.
Here's to being only okay and average.
~Matt |
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[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:53 pm] |
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You know what really bothers me? Is when there are people out there who are so self righteous that they have to but into other people business.
You know, like all those "concerned" Mom's you see on TV. Don't bother fighting for that bullshit, worry more about your kids, and your kids alone. Help teach them rigth from wrong and good from evil. You don't have to be a crusader or a palidin. Just a Mom.
That's not to sound sexist or anything, guys can be this way too, but it usually seems like it's the "soccer moms" that do these things. No offence to any actual soccer moms that aren't psycho bitches.
The wonderful thing about people like that, is how they almost always do more harm then good. They may mean well, but they simply can't handle it. They get too busy sticking their noses where they don't belong and all of a sudden, there is sure to be a catastrophy. Sweet.
This one's for you, all those psychos out there who think they know what they're doing, think that they're making the world a better place but are actually just fucking it up even more. I salute you. You guys rock.
~K |
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| Goodbye, Friends. |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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I have to get out of here. Not that I can't stand it, or that it's driving me nuts, I just HAVE to get out of here. I need to start over. I fucked up, okay? I'm sorry, that life thew these curveballs at me and that I didn't handle them very well. Okay? I'm a bad person, I probably don't even deserve a second chance. Maybe I should just blow my brains out? How's that sound, that'd make everyone happy, just be rid of the little fuckup who doesn't have his priorities straight. Make the world a better place. Not only would there be one less person to feed, educate, house, cloth and consume natural resources, but there would also be one less fucked up piece of shit. Yeah, hindsight is 20/20, get over it. You fucked up, oh well, I've been dealing with it, but I guess you can't. So maybe just one more drink, then I'll get in my car and take off, go on a road trip, visit all the wonderful places on this miserable rock. I might just forget to wear a seatbelt.
-Forget about entry until 7:00pm-
(I do that a lot...)
*sigh* Whatever
I guess I just ruined Christimas...Way to be a downer. Maybe I should just keep my fucking trap shut. Oh well, c'est la vie, eh?
Merry Christmas guys, hope you all had a good one (or at least better then this...)
~Korean |
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